In Her Own Words

[deeperwonderment]

Title: In Her Own Words
Author: shadowcat
Fandom: Primeval
Pairing/Characters: Abby Maitland
Rating/Category: PG-13
Summary: I don’t know how long it might be that I’ll be stuck here...
Words: 450
Notes: This was written for challenge #005 -- Journal Entry at drabble365days




I don’t know how long it might be that I’ll be stuck here, but one thing I do know is that I have to hold on and keep hope that the others are safe. I need to believe that even though the anomaly here closed, another one opened and Danny and Connor were able to get back home. Otherwise, what was the point to everything we risked to make sure that Helen wouldn’t be able to carry through with her plans to destroy humankind?

The one thing I know for sure is that Helen Cutter is finally dead. I had help, yes, but she is dead and can never hurt anyone again. It comes too late for good men like Stephen Hart and Professor Nick Cutter – and even that viper in heels, Christine Johnson, but at least I stopped her from getting the chance to kill anyone else.

I never knew the woman that Nick kept talking about before he started falling in love with Jenny, Claudia Brown, but I hope that he has peace now and knows that Helen paid for whatever he thinks she did to that person, too.

No matters what happens from this point, at least humanity will still get their chance – for good or for ill. Danny, Connor and I have made sure of that. I hope that they and the people I left behind back home know that they’re at least safe from one threat in this world.

I hope so, or again, what has been the point of all of this? I don’t want them to be constantly worried that she will reappear in their lives or she’ll do something to undo all of the wonderful things that humans have managed to create. Yes, there has been unmitigated destruction from humanity, but there have also been wonderful things, too. Helen never saw that. Her focus was too narrow – fixed on the way she thought that everything should be.

As I write this, I’m high up in some of the trees watching one of the most beautiful sunsets I think I have ever seen. The air is clean and I’ve seen things that I’ve never thought I’d ever see before.

I’m alive and she’s dead, and right now, that’s the most important thing. I’m alive and as long as I’m still alive, there’s a chance that I will find a way back home and I’ll be with the people I love again. (Although, if I never make it back and I die out here, I can only wonder what kind of confusion this journal and my supplies would cause later scientists when they find it in the fossil records.)

I won’t give up hope.

Abby Maitland

Comments

[canadian-jay.livejournal.com]

I do love journal entries. :D

Great drabble, I like Abby's voice in this!

[eternalscribe.livejournal.com]

Me, too! There are going to be more, I think. :)

And thank you!