Ability To Pretend
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deeperwondermentTitle: Ability To Pretend
Author:shadowcat
Fandom: Primeval
Pairing/Characters: Captain Hilary Becker
Rating/Category: PG-13
Summary: He had always been better than most at pretending that things didn’t bother him.
Words: 400
Notes: This was written for challenge #006-- Pretend at drabble365days
He had always been better than most at pretending that things didn’t bother him. He was always the one who was held together and got his friends through whatever harsh life event they were going through. Sometimes, pretending was a second nature to him.
It was this ability to pretend that kept him from breaking down when night fell and no one returned through the anomaly.
Two days later when the anomaly closed on its own and disappeared, he was able to pretend that parts of him weren’t breaking inside. How would Connor and Danny get home again if the anomaly was closed? How would Abby find her way back to him if the way was blocked?
How would any of them be able to return to the safety and the love of the time they belonged in? How could he just accept that they were trapped in the future with who knew what kind of predators running loose?
He couldn’t. He didn’t. However, he was able to pretend really well – even when missions were led and men died. Good men died, and he was able to pretend that every death wasn’t another responsibility that was laid at his feet.
His ability to pretend faltered when Sarah was killed.
She shouldn’t have been on that mission, but they were her friends, too, and no one could keep her from going through that anomaly. It had been her idea that they needed to find where the others had chased Helen – and where they went through another anomaly into the past. She was convinced the reason they hadn’t made it back was another anomaly had trapped them somewhere and the only way to help them was to go back into the future.
He didn’t care that Sarah knew the risks and knew firsthand what kind of creatures lived in that future world. He should have done a better job protecting her than he had. When he carried her body back to the ARC after that disastrous mission, there was no way that he could pretend that he wasn’t affected.
He failed Sarah, just as he’d failed Abby, Danny and Connor. He hadn’t kept his promise to protect them. Sarah was dead and he had no idea what had happened to the others.
He couldn’t pretend that everything was all right any longer. Sarah was dead. His friends and his girlfriend were missing.
Author:
shadowcatFandom: Primeval
Pairing/Characters: Captain Hilary Becker
Rating/Category: PG-13
Summary: He had always been better than most at pretending that things didn’t bother him.
Words: 400
Notes: This was written for challenge #006-- Pretend at drabble365days
He had always been better than most at pretending that things didn’t bother him. He was always the one who was held together and got his friends through whatever harsh life event they were going through. Sometimes, pretending was a second nature to him.
It was this ability to pretend that kept him from breaking down when night fell and no one returned through the anomaly.
Two days later when the anomaly closed on its own and disappeared, he was able to pretend that parts of him weren’t breaking inside. How would Connor and Danny get home again if the anomaly was closed? How would Abby find her way back to him if the way was blocked?
How would any of them be able to return to the safety and the love of the time they belonged in? How could he just accept that they were trapped in the future with who knew what kind of predators running loose?
He couldn’t. He didn’t. However, he was able to pretend really well – even when missions were led and men died. Good men died, and he was able to pretend that every death wasn’t another responsibility that was laid at his feet.
His ability to pretend faltered when Sarah was killed.
She shouldn’t have been on that mission, but they were her friends, too, and no one could keep her from going through that anomaly. It had been her idea that they needed to find where the others had chased Helen – and where they went through another anomaly into the past. She was convinced the reason they hadn’t made it back was another anomaly had trapped them somewhere and the only way to help them was to go back into the future.
He didn’t care that Sarah knew the risks and knew firsthand what kind of creatures lived in that future world. He should have done a better job protecting her than he had. When he carried her body back to the ARC after that disastrous mission, there was no way that he could pretend that he wasn’t affected.
He failed Sarah, just as he’d failed Abby, Danny and Connor. He hadn’t kept his promise to protect them. Sarah was dead and he had no idea what had happened to the others.
He couldn’t pretend that everything was all right any longer. Sarah was dead. His friends and his girlfriend were missing.
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